Ya i get what you mean. I don't mean to make the God topic last any longer since they always end up bad, but i got one last thing to say. There's nothing wrong with asking questions it's just that you're supposed to have faith. Kinda like I have faith that Indonesia exists even though I've never been there myself. There is no guarantee that anything exists outside of what my five senses tell me.
going to your question, there's no answer for it.