Lately I've been seeing alot of films with vigilante justice as the theme. I know this has always been prevalent in movies probably dating back to the era of westerns and such. But watching movies like Outlaw, I can't help but wish I was so bold. This is not about the movie however but at the possibility of taking the responsibility away from the police and the government and putting it back into your own hands, especially if the two former have failed you. I respect the job, the life, and the constant danger police officers willingly put themselves in but as we all know... they cant do it all themselves. I know, I speak from experience. In a city of nearly 9,000,000 there are only 37,000 cops, pretty bad odds in my opinion. Reflecting on how many times I've been robbed, had a gun pointed at me, been surrounded by gang members, hell just gone down fighting... and never having any of them bought to justice... the thought of becoming a vigilante has crossed my mind. I can't control it either. When I was drugged up during my wisdom tooth surgery the day after I was mugged I scared the hell out of the dentists and his nurses, cursing aloud that I wanted to beat the hell out of those who had wronged me the day before. Thinking back its not in the sense of being out for revenge but for the future that all who see me and know what I have done know not to, for lack of a better phrase... fuck with me.
I don't encourage vigilante justice because its so hard to keep yourself or others in control. How do you know what lines not to cross? How do you know when you should cross a line? When things really do get bad, when you truly don't feel safe walking down the street... when its a habit to look over your shoulder at every street corner. Or at the worst when you or your family is attacked or threatened... should you as a last resort, take responsibility for your well being or the well being of your loved ones and strike back or strike preemptively?

